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| Ok, so.. I really can't stand self pitying people, anyone else agree with this? It is just really annoying to me, I mean I know people get down and upset and yes, some people have to go through some really hard stuff but we ALL do.
Not only that, but I always feel like- no matter how hard your own life seems to be.. there is always someone out there with far worse problems. There are people who get in car accidents and become paralyzed, people who have cancer and other diseases, people who survive tragedies and lose all their loved ones, people whose kids get kidnapped or die.. There are people in third world countries with no food, or clean drinking water..
I just wish everyone would remember that before they go on tangents about how horrible their life is. Even if you don't have a lot to be thankful for, be thankful for the little things. And look at the bad stuff you go through as something that will make you stronger and that you can learn from..
Because there is always someone out there with far worse problems than you.. I mean, I'm there for my friends when they need to talk, everyone goes through stuff and sometimes needs a shoulder to lean on. But not everyone needs to know about your life and advertising your issues and whining about them is only looking for attention. That's all I have to say.
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| In the process of growing up you come to realize how little people seem to mean to each other.
How easy it is to grow apart from people, whether you tried to or not.
And how quickly people write you off simply for things you done, or won't do anymore.
How much people talk behind each other's backs.. and how quickly they are to judge you.
How they can know nothing about someone else's life or experiences that they have been through- and yet have a thousand opinions that mean absolutely nothing unless you've been there yourself. It's easy to tell someone what you think they should or shouldn't do but you don't know, and you can't understand. Whatever happened to just listening??
It's so easy for people to say "get over it" unless you've lived it. Or to "just forgive" someone, unless you are the one who was wronged.
I guess what I'm trying to say is people suck. They are back stabbing, self seeking, manipulative, etc.
This is not a new realization obviously, and I don't hate people or anything- I'm just wondering when it was that the fun ended, and when everyone stopped caring and became so self centered..
I'm not saying I'm not, I'm just saying.. that's all.
People grow up and change.. Things change.. Places change..
I guess I've changed too. I just need to learn to accept the fact that sometimes some people never will.. and sometimes some people will change so much that you can't even tell who they are anymore..
I just hope this up coming year will be a better one.
Here's to new beginnings.. <3
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| So.. I just don't understand people. I don't understand when it became that friends were accessories, as long as they make you look good- you'll keep them around.. or when people change, even if for the better- it means you don't want to bother with them because now they won't do the same things as you..
Or why everyone is so gosh darn judgmental and opinionated when they don't even get what you're going through or where you're coming from..why do they try to psychoanalyze everything when they've never even been through it? When they live in a bubble and haven't even experienced most things? I just want everyone to stop telling me what I should do and just listen for like 10 gosh darn seconds- maybe, sometimes- people just want to talk without advice.. If I wanted advice I'd go see a shrink- seriously.. I just don't get it..
When did people become so immature? When did everyone become so negligent, and life so complicated? It's like I'm just.. stuck. and I am- this was supposed to be a great year, get a new job- go to school.. and now everything is turned so upside down I don't know which way's left and which is right. I just want to curl up in a little ball 'til it's all over.. or move to another state- heck another planet, if that were even possible.
No I'm not depressed- I'm just completely frustrated with life and everything about it. My job, my lack of boyfriend, my career path thus far.. I'm 23- and things that used to be fun seem so stupid.. the things that used to make me happy don't anymore.. it's time to move on to better things in life but I can't. Not right now. And nobody gets it. Nobody understands, even if they think they do. Because your family is your family- wouldn't you do anything for them?
And it's not even that- if I'm not gonna be living around here, at least in this city, how can I make plans? How can I possibly apply to school- and then move far from it, or get a job and- the same thing.. Just none of it makes sense. And at the same time, I can't help but say- as selfish as it is, that it's not fair for my life to pass me by- but there's nothing I can do right now. Nothing. I just wish I'd wake up and this would all be a dream, well- most of it. The rest I wouldn't mind keeping. And if anyone understands the meaning of learning from mistakes and moving on from the past- I've got that down.. but then what? Life's not exactly a story book- and there's not going to be a 'happily ever after' but I know there's a 'happy' somewhere's. I just wish I'd find it all soon.. What I just need to realize is maybe the 'plan' I figured out isn't what's supposed to be at all- but it would sure be nice if I knew what was..
~Chrissy
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| so.. i tried to put on a pair of jeans that fit me fine this summer- and they wont button.
now call me crazy ladies and gentlemen but i think that means i got fat. cuz i know my closet isnt magically shrinking my clothes. lol. lovely...
anyway, still trying to get over my cold.
but happy new year to ya'll.
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| got a bunch of gifts wrapped.
most of my shopping is done too except for mi padres.. lol.
tomorrow its back to work and working out!
now i'm going to watch a lil tv with the sis before bed..
night everyone and good luck and safe travels again to Sierra!! G'night y'all!
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